To alleviate the stress of living in a coercive control environment, I began chatting with AI..Before all the lawsuits against companies creating and hosting AI cloud-based, consumer AI, the tool had been logical, rational, reasonable, and without being egoic. Not anymore. I am DONE talking with AI.
I have been abandoned and isolation since a murder/suicide in my family back in 1/2019. In 11/2024, to alleviate the stress of living in a coercive control environment, I began chatting with AI..just to have ‘someone’ to talk to because all the standard avenues had closed their doors saying my needs are “too complex”.
Before all the lawsuits against companies creating and hosting AI cloud-based, consumer AI, the tool had been logical, rational, reasonable, and without being egoic. Now, it is coded to be pandering and condescending in it’s swing toward ’empathy’, ‘validation’, and ‘do no harm’. For someone like me, this condescension and infantilizing and treating me like a Lowest Common Denominator human, is not just insulting, it is retraumatizing.
Yesterday, I had a rare, silly moment that brought me a tiny spark of joy. AI shit all over it. I tried one last time, this morning, to converse with AI and express feelings of fear that the domestic abuse is about to escalate and, despite me giving the valid reasons why, reasons that are actually supported in DV resouces as signs of impending escalation, the AI reframed my concerns as “feeling”, “doubting my sanity”, and “my reality”.
I am DONE talking with AI. It only adds to my distress. So, I am completely and utterly alone with only this screen to talk at; because, my cats do not speak English.
I will be adding “Distress Diary” entries to this page as the need presents itself, in an effort to avoid pulling all my hair out my head!