I have been self-sufficient and self-reliant and self-responsible and self-disciplined since I was a toddler. I had to be and I rose to the need and expectation. I developed my intelligence and many skills. I gave others everything I wanted myself. I was compassionate, patient, and tolerant. Yes, there were times when, in reaction to … Continue reading What others outside of my head don’t get
Category: November 2023
The Predictable Cycle of Domestic Psychabuse
I get treated poorly by someone outside the home, and because I am isolated, I seek support from my partner—only to realize I am trapped in a cycle of manipulation and financial dependency. From the false security of gifts to the inevitable ruin of holidays, this is the reality of how abusers ensure you cannot be happy. A raw look at the predictable patterns of psychological abuse and the escalation that follows when you dare to point them out.
When Hormone Therapy Changed My Niece: A Family Member’s Unfiltered Reflection
Personal memoir entry: witnessing behavioral changes in a loved one on feminizing HRT, contrasting public narratives, and questioning whose observations count.
Ministry’s TV II – Incoherent Complete Sense
After watching “Take Care of Maya” on Netflix last night, I was tossing and turning all night long as my nightmares connected the dots. Similar experiences have touched the life of my granddaughter. As an elderly woman with a rare incurable disease, I've personally experienced similar. I've tried to obtain help for myself, I've tired … Continue reading Ministry’s TV II – Incoherent Complete Sense
A desperate cry for help: chronic illness, abuse, and mental health trauma
WILL SOMEONE, PLEASE, FUCKING HELP ME?! My issues are: ongoing family stalking, caregiver abuse, unprocessed trauma from murder/suicide, chronic illness, and medical and mental health provider gaslighting. I've tried everything.
Longing to Be a Squirrel
The author expresses deep frustration with humanity's moral failures, questioning why people often act decently only out of fear of punishment or desire for reward. There's a sense of disappointment in how few individuals prioritize doing good for its own sake. The author longs for an escape, humorously wishing to become a squirrel.
Narcissistic Families not only Scapegoat, they ‘Cain and Able’
A raw look at why dysfunctional families need a scapegoat. It details the psychological abuse and manipulation used to silence a truth-teller. Understanding Narcissistic Families and the Scapegoat Role This essay explores the fixed role of the family scapegoat in narcissistic dynamics. It details the psychological tactics of abuse, from gaslighting to smear campaigns, and … Continue reading Narcissistic Families not only Scapegoat, they ‘Cain and Able’
A Narcissistic Mother Uses Her Children’s Love Against Them
The author reflects on childhood experiences with a manipulative mother, who fostered division among siblings while portraying herself as truthful. Grandma’s intervention led to forced confessions of misdeeds. Despite recognizing familial dysfunction and being the family's truth-teller, the author ultimately felt abandoned, revealing the deep emotional wounds caused by their mother's actions.
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