Trigger Warning: This post contains discussions of trauma, family violence, suicide, medical neglect, psychiatric abuse, economic sabotage, and abandonment. Reader discretion is advised. If you feel unsafe or overwhelmed, please prioritize your well-being and consider stepping away.
Essay on unseen generosity and systemic neglect. Celestia Quixs shares decades of giving—family support, caregiving, foster parenting, art, music—met with rejection, medical blacklisting, economic abuse, and family betrayal. A demand for compassion and justice.
A story of lifelong generosity met with rejection, systemic neglect, and abuse—calling for compassion and justice for unseen givers.
A Life of Unseen Generosity
I’ve spent decades pouring myself into others, a quiet stream of support that few acknowledge. From giving my parakeet to my sibling in 1964, when she lost hers, to raising $2,500 for my son-in-law’s immigration in 2017, my life is a tapestry of sacrifice.
I’ve birthed and raised two children, supporting them through adulthood without demanding alimony during divorces in 1981 and 2005. In 1997, I took in a teen foster child and supported her through her addiction recovery.
In 2019, I handled the grim task of cleaning a murder-suicide crime scene and crafted a funeral playlist, all while providing free childcare for my niece. I gifted cellphones to my daughter and granddaughters during medical crises and left a brand new washer/dryer set for roommates in 2020 without compensation.
I saved my father’s life with a medical intervention in 2004. When he passed away in 2009, I honored his dying wish by supporting his partner for twelve years and I created a family fund, contributing $17,000 over eight years.
My career echoes this generosity. Since 2022, I’ve published five books on Amazon and facilitated Art Therapy Friday as a Mental Health Peer Support Volunteer until 2024. As an Independent Music Artist since 2024, I’ve released 175 tracks through DistroKid, now porting them to Bandcamp.
From my early role as an Eligibility Technician at HHSA (1989-1999) to my role as Queen Priestess of Willowspoon Coven from 2011, until my deteriorating health forced an indefinite sabatical, I’ve uplifted others at every turn.
The Weight of Systemic Rejection
Yet, this generosity meets a wall of rejection. After the 2019 murder-suicide, I was denied mental health care, with clinics citing “Medicare full panel” (National Alliance on Mental Illness, 2023). My Fusarium lung diagnosis led to blacklisting from an entire physician network, a stigma that followed me across state lines, blocking Medicare Part C access due to administrative barriers or embedded bias (Journal of Patient Safety, 2022).
When I needed them most, even friends and coven members withdrew, saying I was “just too negative now” as my health declined.
During a 2023 psychiatric hold, I faced yelled abuse and witnessed unreported patient falls, with no trauma-informed care—only containment (Trauma-Informed Care Implementation Resource Center, 2021). Agencies from social services to OIG gaslit or ignored me, a common experience for those with complex trauma (American Psychological Association, 2020).
Economic Strangulation and Family Betrayal
Living with my ex-husband, who turned from caregiver to abuser, I face economic sabotage. He interferes with my eBay sales and digital income, while APS legitimized his control (Domestic Violence Resource Center, 2023).
Moving is a distant hope, with my SSDI and SDCERA pension putting me $400 over the income limit and disqualifying me from housing assistance or SNAP. This leaves me at 80% of the Federal Poverty Level facing two-year income-restricted housing waitlists (U.S. Department of Housing and Urban Development, 2024).
Family harassment, including trolling my YouTube channel in 2025, drives a campaign to push me toward self-harm.
A Demand for Compassion
I’m not suicidal, unstable, or delusional—just exhausted. I am high-functioning because I must be, not because I’m “fine.” This world punishes resilience, denying me pain management, psychiatric care, and medical advocacy.
My giving—documented and undeniable—deserves support, not silence. Visit https://linktr.ee/CelestiaQuixs to see my work and join me in challenging this unacceptable neglect.
Reference Section
- American Psychological Association. (2020). Trauma and Complex Trauma: Understanding the Impact. Retrieved from https://www.apa.org/topics/trauma
- Domestic Violence Resource Center. (2023). Economic Abuse and Its Impact on Survivors. Retrieved from https://www.dvrc-or.org
- Journal of Patient Safety. (2022). Stigma and Blacklisting in Healthcare Systems. 18(4), 123-130.
- National Alliance on Mental Illness. (2023). Access to Mental Health Care: Barriers and Solutions. Retrieved from https://www.nami.org
- Trauma-Informed Care Implementation Resource Center. (2021). Trauma-Informed Care in Psychiatric Settings. Retrieved from https://www.traumainformedcare.chcs.org
- U.S. Department of Housing and Urban Development. (2024). Housing Assistance Waiting Lists and Poverty Levels. Retrieved from https://www.hud.gov
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