Tag: Abuse

Understanding Chronic Suicidality

The discussion highlights the significant misunderstanding surrounding chronic suicidality, distinguishing it from emotional dysregulation and trivial complaints. It emphasizes that chronic suicidality often stems from ongoing trauma and systemic neglect rather than individual malfunction. The speaker recounts personal experiences of abuse and neglect from family, leading to a complex relationship with their desire to die, ultimately advocating for acknowledgment and understanding of their lived reality.

The Rejection is Total

A raw account of repeated rejection by family, friends, and systems after profound loss, chronicling the pain of being dismissed as daughter, mother, friend, and more—highlighting the deep trauma of abandonment and the struggle for validation.

The Burden of Righteousness

My life is a relentless tide of trauma upon trauma, with every painful memory vividly replayed by hyperthymesia. In the face of such overwhelming suffering, compounded by mental health crises and misdiagnosis, I sought meaning in the Tzadikim mythology—the idea that hidden righteous individuals sustain the world through their pain. What began as a desperate comfort, however, soon ignited a fierce, righteous indignation. This essay explores how personal anguish challenges spiritual notions of suffering, demanding recognition, justice, and a world that finally acknowledges its share of the burden.

Is it Safe, yet?

The Social Experiments Conducted by Someone with Complex PTSD Many sufferers of Complex PTSD got that way by trusting too much and too soon as a survival mechanism. One would think survival would depend upon the opposite—keeping one's guard up and trusting no one. The first example is part of the 'fawn' response—presenting oneself as … Continue reading Is it Safe, yet? →

Narcissistic Families not only Scapegoat, they ‘Cain and Able’

A raw look at why dysfunctional families need a scapegoat. It details the psychological abuse and manipulation used to silence a truth-teller. Understanding Narcissistic Families and the Scapegoat Role This essay explores the fixed role of the family scapegoat in narcissistic dynamics. It details the psychological tactics of abuse, from gaslighting to smear campaigns, and … Continue reading Narcissistic Families not only Scapegoat, they ‘Cain and Able’ →

Polyvagal Theory

The author feels trapped in a cycle of trauma without a safe space, worsened by past abusive relationships and medical experiences. Living with an abuser and facing serious health issues, they struggle to heal. Despite exploring therapeutic techniques, physical limitations hinder progress, leading to a bleak outlook on their future and coping with trauma.